Sunday, November 21, 2010


today is filled with song.

Eat Pray Love Soundtrack Song List
1. Flight Attendant – Josh Rouse
2. Last Tango In Paris (Suite Pt. 2) – Gato Barbieri
3. Thank You (Fallettin Me Be Mice Elf Agin) – Sly & The Family Stone
4. Der Hölle Rache Kocht In Meinem Herzen from “Die Zauberflote" (The Magic Flute)
5. Heart of Gold – Neil Young
6. Kaliyugavaradana – U. Srinivas
7. The Long Road – Eddie Vedder, with Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan
8. Harvest Moon – Neil Young
9. Samba Da Bençáo – Bebél Gilberto
10. Wave – João Gilberto
11. Got To Give It Up (Part 1) – Marvin Gaye
12. ‘S Wonderful – João Gilberto
13. Better Days – Eddie Vedder
14. Attraversiamo – Dario Marianelli

and then because Eddie Vedder captured my heart (again, as he did 15 years ago)


Lyrics from Pearl Jam- Nothingman

Once divided there's nothing left to subtract.

Some words when spoken can't be taken back.

Walks on his own with thoughts he can't help thinking.

Future's above, but in the past he's slow and sinking.

Caught a bolt of lightning. Cursed the day he let it go.

Nothingman...

Isn't it something, nothingman?

She once believed in every story he had to tell.

One day she stiffened. Oh yeah. Took the other side.

Empty stares from each corner of a shared prison cell.

One just escapes. One's left inside. Oh well.

And he who forgets will be destined to remember. Oh, oh, woh...

Nothingman... Yeah, isn't it something, nothingman? Oh, she don't want him.

Oh, she won't feed him after he's flown away. Yeah. Oh, into the sun. Yea, into the sun.

Burn, burn, oh burn...

Nothingman...Oh, isn't it something, nothingman? Oh, nothingman. Nothingman... Oh, coulda' been something, nothingman. Oh ♪

"Present Tense"

do you see the way that tree bends?
does it inspire?
leaning out to catch the sun's rays
a lesson to be applied
are you getting something out of this all encompassing trip?
you can spend your time alone, redigesting past regrets, oh
or you can come to terms and realize
you're the only one who can't forgive yourself, oh
makes much more sense to live in the present tense
have you ideas on how this life ends?
checked your hands and studied the lines
have you the belief that the road ahead ascends off into the light?
seems that needlessly it's getting harder
to find an approach and a way to live
are we getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?
you can spend your time alone redigesting past regrets, oh
or you can come to terms and realize
you're the only one who cannot forgive yourself, oh
makes much more sense to live in the present tense (Pearl Jam)




Saturday, November 20, 2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love






http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfBY96qxVRQ



a w e s o m e


a w e s o m e






Today is the greatest day I've ever known.... la laa .. tra la (Smashing Pumpkins)

Ok, so today is not REALLY the greatest, but it is Friday and that counts for much.
(and Smashing Pumpkins are moshing in my head, providing some ambiance)
I have been grafting hard at work and as I was updating some documentation (in case I get run over by a truck tonight; the show must go on)
I realised how many acronyms we use.


Each sentence is littered with abbreviations and acronyms and bless the soul who has not been on the scene for a while as you WILL most certainly be lost and feel excluded.


Amongst the "words" (which we use now in corporate-speak) but which are actually acronyms I've found some dreadful-grey corporate ones:


CVP - customer Value Proposition

PFA - Personal financial advisers

POP = Point of presence

ROI - return on investment, not to be confused with RIY ( reduction in yield )

so I thought on this happy (cool, reference to the weather) Friday, I'd make some up and pretend hence that I am the master of my own universe...captain of this ship.




FUN = frowned-upon narcissist (example; "yes I've met him, he is 'FUN' ")

GOP = Great obligatory persistence (this can be a person or your work or your family)

SIP = sweet inspiration presides (this is a mood or a vibe to be used in the present-tense)

WTF = wonderful trustworthy friend ( again, a more eloquent replacement for the crude common-usage)


and so, we all create little rules/games in our day to help us foster the illusion that we are in control and that we hold the joy-stick/ the wheel/ the compass/ are at the helm.

Talking of "helms" : I love the boating/ yachting analogy.



STOW - To put an item in its proper place.

Which things in life do we lump around the deck and not stow in their proper place? Are we good at taking orders from the captain? Who is your Captain? Are we quick to set sail if the wind is right? or are we lazing on the couch in the harbour-bar, flirting with the sailors watching the world go by?
Do we sometimes hand the wheel to somebody else? why?
What kind of rituals/ routines do you cling to? What would you do if they fell away?



Here is to all my beautiful friends, who keep me anchored in optimism and love and who accompany me on this voyage.

cheers- happy weekend, don't' be FUN !!


Maria



Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Poetic Tuesday


A brave and startling truth, by Maya Angelou
Dedicated to the hope for peace, which lies, sometimes hidden, in every heart.

We, this people, on a small and lonely planet
Traveling through casual space
Past aloof stars, across the way of indifferent suns
To a destination where all signs tell us
It is possible and imperative that we learn
A brave and startling truth.

And when we come to it
To the day of peacemaking
When we release our fingers
From fists of hostility
When we come to it

When the curtain falls on the minstrel show
of hate
And faces sooted with scorn are scrubbed
clean
When battlefields and coliseum
No longer rake our unique and particular
sons and daughters
Up with the bruised and bloody grass
To lay them in identical plots in foreign soil

When the rapacious storming of the churches
The screaming racket in the temples have
ceased
When the pennants are waiving gaily
When the banners of the world tremble
Stoutly in a good, clean breeze
When we come to it.

When we let the rifles fall from our shoulders
And our children can dress their dolls in flags
of truce
When land mines of death have been removed
And the aged can walk into evenings of peace
When religious ritual is not perfumed
By the incense of burning flesh
And childhood dreams are not kicked awake
By nightmares of sexual abuse
When we come to it

Then we will confess that not the Pyramids
With their stones set in mysterious perfection
Nor the gardens of Babylon
Hanging as eternal beauty
In our collective memory
Not the Grand Canyon
Kindled into delicious colour
Be Western sunsets

Nor the Danube, flowing its blue soul into
Europe
Not the sacred peak of Mount Fuji
Stretching to the Rising Sun
Neither Father Amazon nor mother Mississippi
who, without favour,
Nurtures all creatures in their depths and on
their shores
These are not the only wonders of the world
When we come to it


Maya Angelou
......

and some courageous words full of honesty and so fragile:

The Green Bough- blog
"....It’s a strange sensation reading old writing- like visiting a friend you haven’t seen for years but would still recognize anywhere.
I've decided to share three of the poems here: “Twyla” (based on a conversation I had with Seneca elder Twyla Nitsch of the Wolf Clan), “Night Tears,” and “My Breasts.” These poems are about living intimately with ourselves- with our longing, our grief and the body-self that is inseparable from mind, heart and soul.
When I read them now I hear, beneath the stories and the emotions, a great tenderness for the sometimes challenging, often confusing, but nevertheless sweetness of our human experience.

(wow- brave lady)


Night Tears

There is a crying
that happens at night
that does not come
while the light is with us.
There are things that cannot
be evaded
once the sun goes down.
Small nocturnal creatures
with sharp white teeth
silently gnaw at the edges of
belly and heart
when the darkness descends
and the void inside
grows larger.

It can split you open.

And bone
in the centre of your chest
aches
like the cracked wishing bone
from the turkey breast.

And if we are strong enough to be weak enough
we are given a wound
that never heals.

It is the gift
that keeps the heart open.

Oriah Mountain Dreamer © 1995








Sunday, November 14, 2010

Goldfish




coolest of cool - - - ♪ Goldf!sh - - - - ♪
There are few things more enjoyable than a sunny day in Cape Town with Goldfish and a funky crowd. Thanks Chris, Maggie, Blanche, Inge and Anke. you rock!!












And then (inevitably I guess) there are a few things which brings you right down to ground zero, back to... mm.. I'd hate to call it reality.
Lets call it that feeling of shock and horror: 10-ton-weight-dropping on your foot- feeling
like a beep on your mobile and
its some random cell phone advertisement and NOT the person you'd wished to hear from,
like a Monday-morning- at- work,
before the numbing-routine has kicked in and pulled you along,
at the point where you realise that you are doing some mindless repetition of a report for some senseless structure...
and you focus on reigning in all your power to not jump off a bridge. geeezzzz I put it down to "end-of-year" Over it feeling... where we're just SO OVER IT !!
and then there are a few healthy, non-alcoholic ways to stay sane.....
go park next to a dam ( in this case: Sonstraal Dam ) and page through a magazine,









or read a poem, or sms your grandmother and tell her you love her, or imagine your cute little dinky-flat in New York where you are wearing some Marion & Lindie dress and looking like the
bomb ( understated elegant of course) or going for a run with a good friend.




That should at least see you through to dinner-time and the universe rewards your efforts by bringing that 1 sms you've been waiting for. small portions of bliss.


anyhow-
after dinner: listen to the hauntingly sexy soundtrack of "Eat pray Love" and pretend your Julia Roberts.... yip why not pretend all the way, start with Pretty-Woman, work through Erin Brokovich and end with Liz Gilbert... Eat pray Love.

la allaa tralla laaaaa I am happy I will fake it until I make it

cheers, M

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Chris Swanepoel !!! and in the name of travelling...



So of course the "eat pray love" movie sets your mind "packing".
Thanks husband for getting me the soundtrack: awesome gift as I am now reliving the scenes and the magic.



In Elizabeth Gilbert's book, page 128, she talks about something dear to me: contentment.
quoted from her book:

"The Yogic path is about disentangling the built-in glitches of the human condition, which I'm going to over-simply define here as the heartbreaking inability to sustain contentment.
Different schools of thought over the centirues have found different explanations for man's apparently inherently flawed state.

Taoists call it imbalance, Buddism calls it ignorance, Islam blames our misery on rebellion against God and the Judeo-Christian tradition attributes all our suffering to original sin."





Freudians say that unhappiness is the inevitable result of the clash between our natural drives and civilization's needs.The Yogi's say that our human discontentment is a simple case of mistaken identity. We're miserable because we think that we are mere individuals, alone in our fears and flaws and resentments and mortality. We wrongly believe that our limited little egos constitute our whole entire nature. We have failed to recognize our deeper divine character. We don't realize that, somewhere within us all, there exists a supreme Self who is eternally at peace.
"you bear God within you, poor wretch, and know it not"
Greek stoic philosopher, Epictetus.

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Person of the week:
Antonie Christoffel Swanepoel. For movie & dinner, for DIY, for friendship for the Eat-Pray-Love soundtrack, for tonight's burger and being there for me.
I wish you the wisdom of the owl and a great big catch on Smalblaar!

blessings & love, Maria

Friday, November 12, 2010

Friday Fun see how I run

fast week
hectic week
relief that it is Friday
seafood dinner
yummy prawns...
saw "eat pray love" film with husband
dead tired

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Fabulous Pablo never fails


and in that spirit: this guy arranged his engagement in Rome, from their home-town Texas.
the photos are beautiful.
The blog is called: Inspired by this- by Leila Khalil. (Wedding and PR company created in 2007)




cheers, M

Thunderous Thursday

if i have made,my lady,intricate
imperfect various things chiefly which wrong
your eyes(frailer than most deep dreams are frail)
songs less firm than your body's whitest song
upon my mind- if i have failed to snare
the glance too shy-if through my singing slips
the very skilful strangeness of your smile
the keen primeval silence of your hair

-let the world say "his most wise music stole
nothing from death"-
only you will create
(who so perfectly alive)my shame:
lady through whose profound and fragile lips
the sweet small clumsy feet of April came

into the ragged meadow of my soul.



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the trick of finding what you didn't lose
(existing's tricky:but to live's a gift)


e e cummings
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Relief when it rains
Relief when the sigh escapes
Relief to be understood
Relief to live


M






'n boek
'n tee-koppie
'n blompot
'n besem
'n glimlag
'n ewigheid



m



Sunday, November 7, 2010

find the meaning


Read the Printed Word!


To become acquainted with oneself is a terrible shock. ~ Carl Jung

but in finding the meaning... you have no choice.~ Maria Swanepoel

From the author of the Happiness Project,Gretchen Rubin

post-it-note-catch-up:
She set aside a year to focus on (and structurally build up & enhance) her happiness. She started by providing 12 commandments/ overarching themes to her year.
One of them are : Act the way you feel.

here is an exert from her blog:

Random smiling is an example of my resolution to Act the way I want to feel: while people suppose that feelings inspire actions, in fact, actions also inspire feelings.
So by acting happier, I should feel happier.
And you know, I think I do. “Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile,” Thich Nhat Hanh wrote, “but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.”

Also, because of emotional contagion, people often mimic the faces of people they see. One reasons that people are attracted to happy people is that they "catch" that happiness, themselves.


Me again:
I find this really beautiful and inspiring, but to counter the potential feeling of "sickly sweet/eye-rolling-syruppy-happiness" which might now be starting to creep up on you I'd like to bring in the truest and most glorious of all concepts: the bittersweet life. The Happy-Sad.

No better poem illustrates this than old favourite writer and poet: Khalil Gibran.


His poem aptly titled:
A tear and a smile.


I would not exchange the sorrows of my heart
For the joys of the multitude.
And I would not have the tears that sadness makes
To flow from my every part turn into laughter.
I would that my life remain a tear and a smile.

A tear to purify my heart and give me understanding
Of life's secrets and hidden things.
A smile to draw me nigh to the sons of my kind
and
To be a symbol of my glorification of the gods.

A tear to unite me with those of broken heart;
A smile to be a sign of my joy in existence.
I would rather that I died in yearning and longing
than that I live
Weary and despairing.


I want the hunger for love and beauty to be in the Depths of my spirit,
for I have seen those who are
Satisfied the most wretched of people.
I have heard the sigh of those in yearning and Longing,
and it is sweeter than the sweetest melody.


With evening's coming the flower folds her petals
And sleeps, embracing her longing.
At morning's approach she opens her lips to meet
The sun's kiss.
The life of a flower is longing and fulfilment.

A tear and a smile.
The waters of the sea become vapor
and rise and come
Together and area cloud.

And the cloud floats above the hills and valleys
Until it meets the gentle breeze, then falls weeping
To the fields and joins with brooks and rivers to Return to the sea, its home.


The life of clouds is a parting and a meeting.

A tear and a smile.
And so does the spirit become separated from
The greater spirit to move in the world of matter
And pass as a cloud over the mountain of sorrow
And the plains of joy to meet the breeze of death
And return whence it came.
To the ocean of Love and Beauty----to God.



listen to this wise woman (if you can bear past the eccentric name: Oriah Mountain Dreamer)

"....focuses on the the task of individuation. I see this as the work of making choices that enable us to offer the world the particular shape that the sacred mystery wants to take through our being."
and with that blissful-gem,
I'll leave you this Sunny Sunday,
Maria

Saturday, November 6, 2010

A true fisherman’s tale


The famous story (I am sure you have all heard it before and some have even told it) about the big one or in my case the “big” ones that didn’t get away. Let me tell you of my “epic” day’s fishing on the Smalblaar, beat 2.

The day started out with a few hiccups, but I was still going to fish no matter what. Firstly my fishing partner dropped me at the last minute, 23:11 the previous night to be exact. I am sure he will be kicking himself when he reads this, but then again he did have a valid reason. Then on my way there, I got a call from work saying I was suppose to be doing some overtime today. Oops, my bad! It just means I have less spending money for Xmas.

Oh and then the weather, specifically the wind. It has been so long ago that I have been fishing our streams, that I have completely forgotten how it could spoil your day. At the tunnel the wind was pumping as usual and on the other side not much different. I was lucky though, because when I got out the car at the end of beat 2 the wind was blowing upstream.

So I kitted up, walked the 1,5km to the beginning of the beat and got on the water at about 10am. I tied on a stimulator and a black CDC nymph, which I fished for the first half of the beat. I got a rainbow on my second cast on the nymph and another soon afterwards. This alone was good enough as a day gets for me, so I moved on to the next run. Seeing that I was alone, I did not want to fish all the water and just picked out the “good” spots.

I was about 1/3 up the beat with 4 fish landed and 5 dropped. Not a good score if you where fishing in a competition, but then again I am not called “Oupa” by some cocky younger anglers for nothing. I must admit, I seem to have dropped all the fish on the smaller barb less griphook and I was fishing my new 4 weight. I think it’s when you lift the rod; you have a better change at loosing the smaller fish when they shake their heads. Lesson learned, next time fight them sideways!

Then the first moment of glory, I got this fish slowly sipping my dry fly of the water amongst this turbulent wind and riffled water. I lifted my rod and immediately it felt solid, but it did not fight much. It took of slowly like it was Sunday and luckily with no aerials. Then I saw the size of this fish and it looked like a slab. My heart started pumping faster and my thoughts went back to how good I tied my knots. Got my net loose and landed it safely after a brief struggle. Wow, and then saw it was my personal best for a Rainbow trout on the Western Cape streams. Damm I love living in Cape Town!!!!!

18” Rainbow on Smalblaar beat 2.

After a few photo’s I successfully revived and released it. The collage is all of the same fish. Then after a few minutes of feeling good and smiling ear2ear, I realise that this is hands down the best day (fishing wise) for me ever on the streams. 

But it got better. I have read a lot about the browns that “spilled” into the system, but have never had time since then to catch them. Half way up the beat, after dropping another two and landing one 14” Rainbow, I managed to catch my first 16” Brown Trout. It was sitting in a small pool on the side of the main run, kinda where you would expect to catch a bass. The fight was completely different to the rainbow’s, because all it did was shake its head. For a moment I thought it was a bass, but then I saw the golden colour with the spots. Ah, species number two check √.

16” Brown Trout from the Smalblaar beat 2

I then realised that my day has now just become an epic one! I then stopped at a big flat rock and ate my lunch. It was now after 1pm and I still have the massive deep pool in front of the runs that go up like steps, to fish. The steps looked like you could white water raft down them, so I changed my line to a Di3 with two nymphs. I wanted to spend some time and concentrate on the pool rather. I had a brown woolly bugger behind a black CDC nymph with some tarantula legs. Both the nymphs had some lead wraps and tungsten beads to get them down quickly.

I have stopped at this pool a season or two before and saw some really big bass and trout hanging in the bottom. I made my way to the left side where it was deeper and started fishing these very heavy flies. Half way up the pool I got a few knocks, but not hook-ups. I think I was retrieving to fast. I then slowed down my retrieve and let the flies hang a bit longer. BAM! Inside……but it was a small bass. L I then moved up to target the head of the pool.

On my second cast still trying to mend some line, I saw a flash and I lifted my rod. This time a solid inside!☺It ran up and down the pool, did three aerials and then calmed down. It was just hanging there in the strong current, almost like a muddy. I then saw a smaller fish going mad behind it and then I realised it was my first double up on this river. Man, did I start to plan how I would land these two oaks. I then got them to move some more to tire themselves out, so I could win this fight. Needless to say, I managed to net them both and the rainbow trout was another monster.

17” Rainbow and the bass in the net

I did not fish hard after this last catch and decided to just wade back up the strong current to my car. I wanted to go home as soon as possible and tell everyone about my epic day. This time I have photos to back it all up to. It does not always happen that one person catches so many 16” fish and bigger in one day on these streams. Well today was my day and can tell you, I am as happy as a pig in Palestine. I hope you enjoyed this catch report, I know I did. 

By Chris Swanepoel

Sexy Surprising Splendid Saturday Sixth



woke up at 3am
dogs barking.... imagined what it must sound like to live in a township.

6am get up - get ready -
7am Kraaifontein fun run (I did 5km due to my blue-toe) and Inge did a 10km in newly- bestest- record time. very flat route and quite easy. chilly though... 9am picked up Maggie in Vredehoek, headed to Woodstock: Old Biscuit Mill. Albert Road. yay. always a treat - see photos! Good times were had by Riëtte, Prilosha, Inge, Marilize, Sophia, Person- of -the-week-Maggie and later briefly Carine and Alma.


















"Just living is not enough," said the butterfly, "one must have sunshine, freedom and a little flower."
Hans Christian Andersen



and again: Person of the week features :)



Thanks all. I had a great time.