new beginnings

sometimes we know what needs to be done

but it is not neat or clear.

sometimes we know what needs to be said

but it cuts the listener.

sometimes we know we have to leave

but the comfort and promises of "it will be better"...

is alluring and tugging at your adventurous heart.

and so: sometimes

I just need to act

out of boldness

risking for more

and trusting

It is by risking and opening your hand to more,

that you will find.

you will find adventure

challenge

and more...

Maria

Person of the week: Rob Pattinson

just because he is so so so gorgeous

thank you Rob! (queue sound: 13 year old teenage sob )

yeehaaa party time.

Newlands Forest Christmas year end picnic....

lovely time was had by all

stil

een van my hartskamers is stil
die stoel is geskuif
dit maak dat die mat so krul staan
daar was beweging
maar ek hoor nie jou stem nie

soveel vriende & geeste & stemme & siele in my hartsgange
en soveel pret en lag en gesels en gee
maar ek kan nie 1 vriend as plaasvervanger vir 'n ander he nie
elkeen
sy eie plekkie
onvervangbaar
die stilte lui
soos 'n sirene
in my kop

Julie Daley Rocks !!

Blog from Julie Daley:

What do you want?

What do you really want? That is what you will get. Not what you think you want. What you really, really, really want. If you really want what is true, it’s its own protection. ~Adyashanti

I listened to these words last night as I was working.

I like to listen to Adya’s satsangs, just taking in his words and the transmission that comes through them.
I have a sense these words wove their way through me last night as I was sleeping, because in meditation this morning, I could see how deeply ingrained my thinking is to choose something that will please others, get their approval. It is fairly unconscious still…until now.

I could clearly see it this morning.
And so as I noticed this, I wondered, “Do I even know what it is to choose what I want? Do I know what I want? Do I really know what is true for me?

Am I willing to look, to know for myself?

Am I willing to ask the hard questions?”
This comes down to being able to tune into this self, this being.

This ego has been all about pleasing others (and of course the equal and opposite force of rebellion against that pleasing, but then that’s much more under the surface, but not as under as it used to be).

This coming into oneself, trusting the organic flow from within,

trusting one’s own desires, is key to being an alive, creative being.

And, it really doesn’t care about pleasing. It doesn’t know pleasing. It just is.

_________________ dit het so baie vir my beteken vanaand _______________________

the road splits ahead

and so I came to a fork in the road

and left looked happy and familiar

and right looked bright with new colours I've not seen before

so which road do I take

we have but 1 chance

Maria

ek aanvaar

ek is nou 31 (amper 3 maande al )
en ek leer van aanvaarding... nie soos kennis in jou kop inprop-leer in die sin van teësinnig leer nie, maar 'n sagte leer.

ek aanvaar dat die botter ook soms hard is in die deftige restaurant se brood-mandjie
ek aanvaar dat die tee nie altyd sterk genoeg is nie ( al het ek die sakkie lank ingehou )
ek aanvaar dat ek skrikkerig is vir die tegnologiese -golf wat ons huis inrol... blackberries, ipads, ipods, dstv, wi-fi-, bla bla, HD, bla -afkorting-bla
ek aanvaar dat dit okay is om te huil na die Twilight-flieks ( al is ek 31 en nie 13 nie )

ek aanvaar dat ander mense Kersfees op 'n ander manier vier
ek aanvaar dat baie mense nie Kersfees vier nie


ek sal nog aanvaardings- deel deur die loop van die week.
x
m

troubled

i keep feeling that something is about to happen

like Edward won't love Bella anymore...

or dread enters this heart...